now playing: Wilco, Yankee Hotel Foxtrot
i'm actually seeing them play tonight. michial and i are excited...hopefully jason and nolan are coming.

yes, michial is visiting right now. it's really great.

we hung out a good bit with jason yesterday afternoon and it was a wonderful time, ate at a restaurant i hadn't been to before.
seth is here too, for a few days...great person, i'm glad to get to spend some time with him and i'm glad he and carole get to have some time together.

so it was a fun weekend.

it's just really great to have michial here...we can sit around or take a walk and talk about music, film, snl, all that sort of thing, endlessly. same with jason when he's around, actually, too. not many people around who have time to hang out much, and it's great to talk with someone on the "things" and "ideas" level, too, as opposed to the "people" level.

carole made a very good meal last night. damned tasty.

last night, saw "the man who wasn't there"...very good film. i missed a few minutes due to my usual film-related narcolepsy i seem to always have, but wow. went to sleep just after midnight but got woken up and had a hard time getting back to sleep, but hopefully i'll feel better later today.



i'm not sure why so many of us have such a great time sharing weird dreams, but we do.

so you get to read it.

the other night i had this dream that one of my co-workers was riding a horse in some parade type thing, except it was in a mall.
so i went to see it. so he's riding this horse in the parade in the mall and suddenly his horse got skittish and it set off utter chaos for a few minutes. i can't really describe it, so i won't try.

so then i was just walking around in the aftermath, digging on how everything looked versus how the mall had looked before, and a pretty girl walks up to me. she tells me that she and her family wanted me to know that Oasis was going to be in Chicago this fall and that tickets were going to go on sale in a week or so. we had a good conversation about ticket lines and chicago and that sort of thing. i asked her why they wanted to tell me and apologized for not knowing them if i should. she said she and her sister just thought i looked like someone who would like Oasis and they really wanted to meet me so they thought they'd tell me that. that's the point where i woke up.



i actually ate breakfast at home on a weekday. i'm pretty proud of myself for that.



it's 10:40 and i'm hungry for mexican food, i'm not sure why. i don't really feel like going to a restaurant for lunch, though, and last night's leftovers will be really good, so it's going to work out just fine.



this has been a pretty basic update type post, but people ask me what i've been up to, so i post this sort of thing.



the last couple weeks i've spent a lot of time just contemplating who i am, where i'm at, how to handle life's situations. not that i never do otherwise, because i actually probably do way too much (it's no secret i'm fairly aloof and self-absorbed much of the time), but the last couple weeks it's been in a more constructive, practical, and i suppose a good word is "pro-active." some changes need to be made, some confrontations need to be made, some things are going to need to be discussed and worked out. i really hate confronting myself, and i suppose that's the hardest part. i can realize that a change needs to be made and i can make somewhat of an effort, but what usually needs to happen is a confrontation. i have to call myself out on stuff and just be very honest. it's hard for me to do that with other people, it's easier to be a doormat that have confrontation, but with myself it's even harder. something i've learned, however, is that if someone wants to change, knows the need is there, and truly desires the change to be made, it can be done. it may take a while, it is probably going to hurt a bit one way and/or another, but it can be done. and yes, you slip, you fall, you screw up...but the change is still there. anyway, for the most part, none of what i'm talking about or referring to is witnessable in regards to the situation within myself that i refer to (and were this in regards to a situation involving another person, it wouldn't be posted), but sometimes writing about this sort of thing is a good reminder for me to have seen typed out by myself...and who knows, perhaps someone i don't even know who may read this needs to know that things really can change, so there you have it. and yes, to be honest, the above description is really applicable to many things in my life that need worked on. it's really best i don't start saying more about it because otherwise, i'll never shut up and i have quite a good bit of work to do.