i'm thinking a lot lately about an awkward email i'm going to have to send. i suppose i don't HAVE to send it, but i really should. basically, someone who i thought could turn out to be a good friend (and certainly she seemed as if she wanted a good friendship) pretty much has just ditched me. my theory is that she thinks i wanted something romantic out of the deal, which is a ways down the road from true. let's face it, if you are single and meet someone of the opposite sex who you think is cool, the idea "could this?" at least goes through one's head. there's no denying that. however, that was never my intention in meeting her, would not be my intention in spending time with her or developing a friendship, and the truth of the matter is, i need and want a couple friends now much more than any sort of romantic situation. and perhaps i'm insane for even thinking this way, but i have to at least try to talk to the girl i met a couple weeks ago and see what the situation may be there before anything else is really an option. however, people assume things sometimes, and sometimes are just misled. anyway, her not replying to me and avoiding me at a show we were both at is, even if understandable, still a bit juvenile. however, that won't be mentioned. truth is, i'm the sort of person who generally likes to know a lot more than i let on. most of the time, there's no point in confronting people or creating a scene that doesn't have to happen. if at some point something i know should be used in another situation or conversation, then fine, but i'm very patient and generally just like to see where things go. so yeah, that said, i won't bring that up, i made it a point to not let her know i saw her there, since she'd been unresponsive up to that time. anyway, i'm just going to email her and let her know that hey, it's not like *that*. and who knows, that may not be the issue. the issue may just be that she doesn't enjoy my company and doesn't know how to act in regards to that. fair enough. but i suppose just letting her know that i'm not infatuated with her or anything may perhaps be a step in gaining a friend.