weekend statistics:


movies watched:

Rocky

Pretty in Pink.


i liked Rocky a lot. it was really cool to see the places in philadelphia that carole loves. i just wish i hadn't been so tired when i watched it.


books purchased:

An American Childhood by Annie Dillard

Imitation of Christ by Thomas A. Kempis

i got these for a buck each at Goodwill.



other major purchases:

air conditioner. this makes our ground level feel really really nice. the basement feels good and is usually pretty cool anyway.



what's really annoying is the fact that while i loved watching Rocky, i was really quite tired and sleepy. i was pretty much ready to go to sleep around 9, actually. movie got over around 11 and i had been falling asleep for about the last hour of it, so i just went straight to bed, pretty out of it. well, then, of course...i then spent the next hour plus trying to get to sleep. it was around 12:30 by the time it all fell together, i think. oh well.



i'm feeling very drawn in a certain direction. i really am going to start doing a lot more contemplation and meditation...and doing more reading as i can.
there's a lot of negative spiritual energy around right now...laugh and joke about it if you will...i mean, i'm the first to pretend i'm yoda and say "strong is the dark side" or whatever. but anyway, i realized that i'm not really doing much to combat that with in myself. sure, i go to liturgy almost every sunday...and it really does do so much for me. it took a few times to get used to but as i'm into it longer, the more i draw from it, it seems. i crave it. but the thing is...once a week for a couple hours just isn't going to do it. i'm a selfish person. i'm an asshole, really. i'm proud. and like i said, there's so much spiritual negativity in this world, especially in our neighborhood...and how can i expect to deal with that, to overcome it, if i'm not allowing God to do positive spiritual things in me. i don't know...there's so much to do, so much i want to do, people i want to help (my life is not working a meaningless job and then watching tv all night--i'm supposed to help people, get involved with those most desperate) but it isn't going to happen without this. so anyway, yes...i'm needing to just grow some discipline and develop this lifestyle. this is very much what i'm called to and what i've been searching for for many many years.